Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Emotionally and Financially Struggling


I spent all Christmas listening to my BIL and SIL talking about their "oops baby" and how disgustingly fertile they are.

It was AMAZINGLY AWESOME to get away with DH for vacation. We had a wonderful time at Disney World and the beach. It was exactly what we needed.

Friday night we spent time with DH's family that lives in Florida. His cousin and his wife have been married for 13 years and never used any form of BC. They never went to the doctor, never tried anything. And they just had a beautiful baby girl on August 4th. She was so precious. DH and I actually slowly opened the door to ask them about their IF. They were eager to discuss it.

They are very religious people. The same denomination as us. They left it in God's hands. And even though we are not strong enough to do the same (as in not going to the doctor) they were so helpful and supportive. It was so nice to open up to someone else who understood. We were able to tell them the stupid "sperm donor" and "surrogate" comments we got from BIL and SIL. DH's cousin said "There is just no reason to say that. There is no excuse for being that insensitive." And I just cried. Someone understood! And even though DH and I have decided to go the medical route to conceiving, they gave us so much hope to still trust in God. DH and I believe God has given doctor's medical treatments for a reason. We have our own personal views and I am not trying to start a debate or fight anyone else's beliefs, but we are so happy with our decisions.

We are going forward. We are not putting off doctor's appointments or anything. We are just going to go for it. There is no sense in waiting. We're going to try our best to be smart financially, but we are moving forward. DH and I had a great vacation. We had a great time together and wonderful talks. And for once I really feel like DH and I are on the same page. We are finally doing something together and working toward the exact same thing. :)



B MoM said...

It's tough living in this infertile world. I'm glad you were able to connect with DH's cousin and wife. It's reassuring to know you're not alone, isn't it? Sending you virtual hugs. This journey is tough.

Anonymous said...

Exactly. There's no reason to put your life on hold. As far as I'm concerned, God put RE's on this earth in order to assist us as needed. I pray all the time for "God to work though the RE to heal me." Well see what happens. I couldn't have waited 13 years for a baby (and I hope neither of us has to). It would be very hard to stay at peace with God if He were to decide that. She's stronger than I.

Brooke said...

I am glad that you guys are sticking together and you were able to talk with someone who cares about your feelings. I hope that you have your baby soon.