Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Freakin' Christmas

I got a freakin' BFN this morning...I was either 15dpo or 13dpo...and STILL NO AF!

OMG were my hopes high! Even after seeing the negative I still thought...oh man I am just NOT MUST be too early.

Then we had DH's family over for Christmas. Ahhh. It's so nice to have a BIL who LOVES to talk about how fertile him and his wife are and how they NEVER have had ANY problems getting pregnant! Especially considering the one she's pregnant with now was NOT planned!

Then the jokes start...that my husband must be shooting blanks...that we must not be doing it right...and the inevitable "just relax." Ohhh. NICE. 'PRECIATE IT. You little *beeping* *beep* *beep* *BEEP*!!!!!

My poor sweet mother in law...she bought my SIL a maternity shirt. VERY cute. She just wants grandbabies. She has my nephew...and another one on the way. But not from me and DH. She said "Miss Emmyline, am I going to have 3 grandbabies to buy for next Christmas?" After DH announcing to everyone that I was sick at my grandmother's last night. Oh...and he announced to everyone that I was 4 days late. Greeeaaat. Thanks for that. So then of course EVERYONE starts picking on me for being pregnant.

Until I just come out and say "I TESTED! It was NEGATIVE! GET OVER IT!" SIL and BIL respond with "Oh that doesn't mean should wait a week and test again."

And then dinner ends...and I had to pee...and lo and behold, I started. I cried. And I sat there. And I cried some more. And then I painted my face back on and went back to the group. I text DH with a simple note "I started." I didn't say anything to anyone about it. But I was SO SURE THIS WAS IT. My temperature stayed up. No cramps. New meds. But a BFN.

Merry Freakin' Christmas


Annie said...

I'm sorry, I can't imagine a worse Christmas present. I tested yesterday too, hoping for a Christmas miracle, BFN. So sorry.

Brooke said...

What the heck is wrong with some people. They just dont know how to keep their mouths shut. Many have "good" intentions but really is harassing someone about such a seriously sensetive subject really necessary. It must be a family thing. I hope you were able to salvage some of your christmas. Love ya girl!

B MoM said...

Oh sweetie, I understand the pain and frustration!!!! I totally have been in that same situation. It's gotten so that me and DH do NOT discuss TTC with the family. We have pre-planned stories that are appropriate for each audience. Of course, my family knows about our prior losses and my current hiatus from TTC, so no one brings it up. But if I do come across an unsuspecting person who asks, we say, we're thinking about starting, but aren't sure yet.....with your age, you could probably get away with that excuse too.......Hugs!!

Nikki said...


sorry for being mean but I wanna punch your BIL and SIL in the face and show them just how fertile they friggin insensitive grrrrr!!