Taking a 3 Month Break

The 50mg Clomid did not make me O :(

DH and my ObGyn feel like there is no sense in using Clomid again since DH needs to wait to find out what is wrong with him. I disagreed because I wanted to see if 100mg worked. Then I would know how much I needed to take once DH got better. But they felt like it was a wasted cycle, so I gave in.

DH did not go for his U/S. It was too expensive. But we have 3 months until his next appointment with the urologist so hopefully we will get it done sometime from now until then. DH is also going to start a vitamin regime:

• Vitamin C 500 mg
• Vitamin E 400 IU
• Folic Acid 1000 mcg
• Selenium 200 mcg
• Zinc 20 mg
• L-carnitine 1000 mg
• Lycopene 10 mg

This is a list of all the ingredients in the vitamins that DHs urologist suggested. This is off of www.theralogix.com. This is a website the urologist told us to go to and buy the vitamins. He also told us it takes 3 months for men to create new sperm, so he needs to take it for 3 months and get another S/A. So that is why DH does not have another appointment until May.

I am so bummed. I really feel selfish and guilty for still wanting to try to have a baby after all the financial problems we're facing. DH makes me feel the worst. He is apparently the "voice of reason" and I just feel like a little kid that won't give up. He just doesn't understand. I know secretly that we should stop. But I also have this little voice in that back of my head telling me that we're going to need to do more expensive procedures and I feel like if we go ahead and get the Clomid and stuff out of the way that by the time we are ready...we can go ahead and get the procedures and not waste time. That sounds so crazy. But that is my mind....

So I guess we will be trying naturally for the next 3 months or so. I'm going to stop charting and temping. I'm going to stop it all. I'm so over it anyway. It's been 8 months of charting and temping and it drives me crazy. So I guess Metformin is the only hope I will have during these 3 "natural" months.

I have my appointment later today with the diabetes consultant to talk about taking my blood sugar everyday. Fun fun. I'll let you know how it goes...