Week 12-14 :)

This pregnancy is flying by!!! Where do I start with an update??

Let's see....my sickness has not subsided! I am still nauseous now...if not worse...than before. I am still throwing up and having a hard time if I go too long without eating. Work is hard. As I've told you about in previous postings, I have SEVERE back pain...and I've had it for 2 years now and they still don't know what's wrong. Going to the doctors and getting more tests was just not feasible for awhile because....well, it costs an arm and a leg!!! And now I'm afraid I won't be able to go to the pain specialist because I'm on Medicaid for pregnancy only. So anywho...it's killing me. Work is REALLY hard right now because of it. We go on a field trip every Friday and this past week's field trip was torture. We hiked 3 miles. NOT a good idea! I was miserable...and no one at work understands...

My DH is predicting that I will not be able to work by the end of the summer. I'm really afraid of this...because we really need the money! But I don't want to hurt myself or especially the baby...so I'd rather be safe than sorry! The other night my back was hurting so bad I thought I was going to have to go to the ER. I asked DH if my back pain could cause trouble for the baby. He said...only if my blood pressure gets really high. Well, when I get REALLY bad bouts of pain...my blood pressure does increase. So my first question at my next appointment will be about my back pain and the baby. If it's a problem...I'll quit work...and that's that.

Let's see what else...oh oh oh! Good news!!! I felt the baby for the first time Wednesday night!!! I was laying in bed on my back and I felt this thing like waves...on my left side. I knew it wasnt gas because I had had gas all evening (LOL) and this was different. Little bit was going crazy in there! I told DH and he put his hand on my belly where I felt it and I held my breath and BAM! He got to feel a great deal of movement! He got all teary eyed and I said "Did you feel it?!" and he was like "OMG! I think so!" lol...so that was amazing! I haven't really felt it since...but now that I have...I know exactly what to look for! I'm so excited!

I have been eating considerably less these days. I have been really sick and I haven't even realized that I wasnt eating. Its very hard for me to find anything that I actually want to eat. Its been tough. I have also been coming home and getting straight in the bed and laying down the entire evening. Only to fall asleep about 11 or 12 and not get up til about 9am! Its been good to have that time with DH because he has to go to bed early...and get up at 5am. It's funny because I have been peeing every 2-3 hours in the night and I always end up getting up to pee when he's getting up for work. I thought the peeing in the middle of the night was supposed to go away in the 2nd trimester too...but nope! It actually increased for me! I was going about twice a night and now I'm going about 4 times a night! LOL

So my next appointment is this coming Wednesday! I will be 15weeks 5 days. I am seriously considering asking for an U/S even though it's not scheduled because I have been having some SEVERE cramps lately. No joke. It hurts like heck!!! And since my back pain has me wondering if I am stressing the baby...I think they'll let me! I really just want to see little bit healthy! But I also may just ask the gender! LOL I am about to crazy! I want to know SO bad! Mainly because I want to be abe to start picking out stuff...and I want to call little baby by their name! :)

So I'll update some pics now! Here's week 13 and week 14...I'm going to take a pic today for week 15. I'll let you know how the appointment goes Wednesday! If I dont get an U/S that day I am planning on scheduling the gender U/S for July 3rd when I am 18 weeks. I don't want to wait that long...but I guess I might have to!!!


Week 13...
Week 14...any bigger??

Congratulations Tori! Welcome Zach!

CONGRATULATIONS TORI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ZACH IS PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those of you that don't know....a loooooooong time ago, I was a member of the message board TTC After BC. I had A LOT of women rooting for me on there...because, I was the IF. Tori was lucky :) haha and got pregnant soon after joining our board. However, unlike all the other ladies who pranced off to their DDC...Tori always came in to check on me! :)

When I got pregnant she didn't hesitate with congratulations! She still kept updated on me all this time....shes an awesome lady! And I am so happy to announce that she had her precious baby boy, Zach, Sunday morning at 7:55am!

Go check out her blog "Geeks in Love" in my blog list to see his precious picture!

Love ya Tori!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sheesh...I Need to Catch Up!

Whew...I have not posted in like 2 weeks! I always read everyone's posts...but I just seriously feel so comfortable in my pregnancy status...that I don't have much to talk about!!! LOL

So here is my update for week #12 and week #13! So week 12 I still totally had the same old night sickness...but this week (week 13) I have finally started feeling better!!! I am still nauseous, but the sickness is subsiding. I am craving milk, milk, milk! It's just about the only drink I can have that doesnt leave a gross taste in my mouth.

So I had to reschedule my next appointment. I moved it from June 19th to June 17th. June 19th apparently is a day that EVERYONE wants off at my work...and I have to have my appointments in the afternoon so my husband can go. So hey, it's 2 days earlier! :) It's still only to meet the doctor and not an U/S....but still, it will just be nice to meet a doctor (who is female!) and feel refreshed again. Then I plan on making our gender U/S for July 3rd! I will be exactly 18 weeks...but I don't care! I am so anxious! I want to be able to call this little baby by their name!!!

So...that is honestly all I have to update with! I am loving my life being pregnant...so everything is good! Hopefully something exciting will happen before my next appointment so I don't wait another 3 weeks to post! haha

Week 11 of Pregnancy

I think it is time for some fantastic news. Lucky for you...this blog is full of great news! Nothing sad or depressing in this blog! I have waited a long to post because I finally had time to get all my pictures on my computer...so I can add lots! :)

First round of good news...about that ONE class I need for my diploma. I found out that I can take an equivalent ONLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! That means I can register at anytime and all I need to do is tell the graduation office which semester I plan to finish. All I have to do now is gather up the $567 to get the class...and then I have all pregnancy to finish it...that's right, in my OWN time! FABULOUS! :)

Next round...my husband GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He starts Tuesday!!! It is another manufacturing job, which I think makes him happy because he KNOWS he is good at it! It pays considerably less than his old job, BUT with me working...my paycheck will EASILY make up the difference! :) HOORAY!

Hmm...anymore good stuff?? Oh yeah...today I am officially 12 WEEKS!!! Ahhh....this trimester has just gone by SO FAST! Maybe because I only knew I was pregnant from 5 weeks on...but still. There has already been SO MUCH change going on in my body and with baby...it's just PHENOMENAL. Thank God for this baby! :)

Now for the nitty gritty about this week...way more pregnancy related!!! So week 11 started off just fine. I was hoping that my sickness would subside. Not that it's been unbearable, but still...throwing up, even if it is once a week, still sucks. But I was not so lucky. Monday night had the worst bout of sickness I have had the entire pregnancy. Now here comes the TMI...DH and I had JUST FINISHED having sex. And I mean literally, he had JUST rolled off of me and laid down next to me. I coughed and threw up in my mouth! I hung over the bed to the trash can to spit it out....and lo and behold...there I go! It was pitch black in our room...and my hair was down!!! And those of you who have seen my pictures know my hair is by no means short. Well as soon as I started losing my dinner DH rolled over as fast as he could and grabbed my hair. He said "I'm gonna turn on the light, baby" and when he did, I saw a big strand of my hair dangling in the trash can. LOL DH then came rushing back over to me and held back my hair for me. I proceeded to puke for like 15 minutes! By far the WORST bout of sickness I have had. DH was SO great though....LOVE HIM!

The next morning I woke up to pee and I looked in the mirror and BAM! My eyes looked horrible!!! What the heck is all over my eyes?!?!?! I had tiny red spots all over my eyelids and under my eyes. It looked like I had rubbed red eyeshadow all over them! Come to find out...I had strained my face soooo bad from throwing the night before. And they have finally faded...and that was 4 days ago!!!

Anymore stories?? Hmmm...oh yea! I signed up for WIC and ended up spending 4 HOURS in that office...only to have a 15 minute appointment! I was there from 11am to 3pm...for an 11:15 appointment!!! I did not get called back to 1pm!!! Then I was sent into ANOTHER waiting room until 2:15! OMG It was awful. And I didnt eat before going...so I literally fasted all day and didnt eat a single bite of food until 4pm. NEVER doing that again!!! But it's all worth it because we will get free, healthy food :)

Now for the long awaited story about my appointment today!!! IT WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!! Let me start off my saying the U/S must only get better from here! The previous 2 I have had..the baby has been a blob. Today, it was a BABY!!! Baby boo was squirming around on his belly, then his side, then his back, then his other side. We got some FABULOUS photos! The nurse kept calling him wiggle worm because he wouldn't sit still long enough for her to do the nuchal transluceny test. Which came out fine, btw! :) And even better news....he is no longer measuring behind!!! He was measuring 5 days behind at both of my previous appointments, but he was measuring EXACTLY 12 WEEKS today! So my EDD stays the same! :) It was by far the best appointment EVER. We spent a good 20 minutes in U/S first with the abdominal and then with the transvaginal. She even tried to see him in 3D! She did not rush anything which was SO appreciated! I just kept talking to the baby "Hi little baby!" "Look at you moving around!" He was even sucking his thumb and waving at us! It was so surreal!!! His heartrate was 158 bpm...which is great. It is unbelievable to know this little baby inside is moving around...probably right now...and I can't feel him!!! I can't wait until I feel that first movement!

So our next appointment will be June 19th with the actual doctor. No U/S though :( Then our next appointment will be no earlier than July 3rd...because that is the earliest we will find out the gender!!! I can't wait for that one!!! DH said he had a dream that we had a little girl, so he's changing his vote! LOL

Alright...ready for some pics?? I've got the belly pic from last week...10weeks....first time wearing maternity skirt!!!

This is the 11 week picture...taken with my camera phone...also in maternity clothes...from my SIL!!!

And finally...so FANTASTIC U/S pics!!! 12 weeks exactly!!!

Baby sucking his thumb!!!


Baby facing us!!!

The U/S pics are phone pics too...but I think they're pretty clear!!!

One last belly pic...from today! 12 weeks!!!

DH and I are hosting a graduation party tomorrow in honor of me and best friend (even though I didnt graduate! lol) And he has been fantastic cleaning up the house and letting me lounge around. I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!! I hope this blog was a fun one!!! Nothing depressing over here! LOL Everything's going great!

Week 10 of Pregnancy

Well...this has been quite a week. Very stressful. I found out I failed a class. So I don't get my degree until I have passed it. It is only offered in the summer or next spring. BUMMER. My DH has been such a wonderful support. I cried and cried and cried thinking about how much I have screwed over my family. And now I'm pregnant...I can't just waltz my way back into school. I need money for that...time for that. Ugh.

Moving on...we gave away one of our dogs Monday night. We had originally decided to give away 2 of them. Buddha and Milo. Buddha was my MILs dog who bit my nephew and DH ran to the rescue and let him come stay with us. Milo is our baby who we have had since 2 months before we got married. I cried and cried and cried thinking about getting rid of Milo. Honestly, Buddha would be a better dog by himself. He never really got along with our dogs. He's older and he's jealous easily. We put them up on Craigslist. I got a call from a lady who was interested in meeting them. So I went off to work. I still cried and cried and cried with the thought of losing Milo. I cried so much I made myself sick. I threw up and I threw up and I threw up. It was awful. I called my DH and told him I just couldn't go through with it. it was like giving up a child. So the lady came to meet them...and it turns out she only wanted Buddha anyway :) Buddha loved her! She was holding him like a baby and rubbing his belly and he was just eating it up!

Then...I called my case worker at DHS only to find out she hadn't even OPENED the envelope full of all the information she needed to start our process. We dropped it off a week ago! Irritating!!! So I tell her I have my next appointment in a week and 1/2 and I NEED that TennCare ready to go so I don't have to pay. She told me she would go ahead and get started on my case right then! I should expect a letter in the mail to tell me I've got it and then within a month I get my insurance card. But she said the letter would be enough to be seen. Thank God.

I have never cried so much as I have this week. Lately my favorite thing to do is get my lunch, go park at our local park, and eat and cry in my car. This sounds really pathetic, but honestly...it keeps me sane. It keeps my poor DH from having me break down in front of him. I am just hoping that from here on out is smooth sailing. I need to focus on getting a good paying job with benefits. I need to decide what I'm going to do about that one class I have left. Now that I have cried about it...I need to think about it.

So this week gets me that much closer to the end of the first trimester :) I am now anxiously awaiting my next appointment on the 22nd. I have been taking a belly picture every week. It's just annoying to have to upload all of my pictures just to get one. So I'll try to upload my 10 week picture soon. I think my belly has popped! Or it may just be because yesterday I wore my very first maternity skirt!!! And it let my belly hang out...so I'm sure I looked bigger just because the fat and baby belly were hanging out. LOL But it was so comfortable! I also had to tell my boss that I am going to need some bigger shirts. haha. My work shirt barely covered the elastic belly band!!! So to all of you out there considering switching to maternity clothes...do it!!! :)

Week 9 of Pregnancy...

Whew! 9 weeks already...and look at that belly! This is actually at 9 weeks 2 days...I looked down at my belly this morning at church and realized how far it was sticking out...so when I got home I HAD to take a picture! Some people are telling me I don't look different at all...but even today my DH noticed!

So I'm thinking one major reason for this is that I am constipated. I thought this (and peeing frequently) were all symptoms of later pregnancy...but apparently not. As far as actual symptoms go...last week was the worse...this week, so far so good. I have been eating and eating and eating! Thank the Lord! This weekend my little sister came to stay with us and my husband always cooks a BIG breakfast when she comes because he knows how much she loves his breakfast! I was so excited for this breakfast...and I ate a big plate full and felt fine! It was fantastic! Then later on we went out with my family to eat spaghetti and I ate 1/2 my plate and again...I felt fine! Woohoo!

One symptom that is getting old quick is this heartburn! Now I'm a big girl, so I've had my fair share of heartburn...but this is ridiculous! I'm talking...I'm taking 4 TUMS sometimes and it's still not helping! Sheesh!

But all in all I am LOVING this experience of just going through life everyday being pregnant. This baby is just such a blessing I can't even describe it. My family (especially my Aunt) is being SO supportive and it is just awesome. I'm not sure if I mentioned this...but my Aunt went ahead and bought us our first baby car seat/carrier! I about cried! And then last night she gave me the book "What to Expect When You're Expecting." She is so exciting for us.

So less than 3 more weeks until our next U/S appointment! It doesn't seem nearly as far away as it did before our emergency U/S. I am so glad we had that done. It was amazing to have the reassurance that our bean is doing well :)

Well..tomorrow is my last final (EVER!) and I start back to my after school job. Only 2-6 for now, but hey, it's money! And I graduate on Wednesday! So excited! :)

Spotting Scare...

So today was just a regular day for me. I went to lunch with my dad...nothing new. I came home hoping to get a good nap in before I needed to study and before DH got home. Things definitely did not go as planned.

When I got home I went to the bathroom to pee...and when I wiped...a streak of bright red blood. Right there on the toilet paper. There was a tiny clot too. I wiped again...a slightly lighter streak. So I got up, went to the phone, and called the ObGyn. I talked to my nurse about my blood sugar levels that she was concerned about and got that resolved. Then I told her I was spotting. Bright red. She said "Are you working today?" "No...I can come in right now if you need me to..I'm free all day." "Ok, well, go ahead and call up to the front desk and tell them I need to see you." "Ok, thanks"

The front desk lady asks "How long will it take you to get here?" "Around 15 minutes" "Alright, go ahead and come in and we'll squeeze you in"

Then I call my husband "Honey...." "Yea, babe, what's up" "Um..." "Honey? What's wrong?" And I lost it. I started bawling. I couldn't even talk. "I'm....spotting. Bright red." "Ok..." "I called Fort Sanders and they said to go ahead and come in" "Ok then go" "Are you gonna come with me?" "Yea of course. I'll meet you there. Are you safe to drive?" "Yea I'll be fine" "Ok BE SAFE"

I went back to the bathroom again and wiped again. Just a slight streak again. I was bawling in the car...I called my foster mom and told her and she said my uncle had already called her. My DH was working with my uncle and had to leave...so obviously he had to tell him. I talked to her until I reached DH. I had finally calmed down. But it was SO OBVIOUS that I had been crying. My eyes were HUGE, red, and puffy. We arrived at 2:10 and were seen by 2:30. Did I mention I LOVE my ObGyn office?! Seriously. So we go into the U/S room and my nurse tells me that spotting is really normal...so I don't need to freak out just yet. We're gonna check everything out...you did the right thing coming in.

And then the U/S. The moment of truth. And we see a beautiful little blob. The first words out of my nurse's mouth were "Alright everything looks good." HALLELUJAH. DH and I both started crying. The baby has tripled in size since our last U/S less that 2 weeks ago. The heart beat is now 176 bpm. I'm still measuring 5 days behind. I was 8 weeks 4 days today, but measured 7 weeks 6 days. So I may just end up with a November baby :) She showed us the problem. I had something called (I think) a submucosal hemorrage or something like that. It was basically just a sac full of blood right next to the gestational sac. So what's happening is every time I move the sacs rub together and that will produce blood until the blood sac goes away. She said I should expect to see spotting for a few days. She put me on bed rest for the rest of the day and told me to take as much bed rest as possible for the next few days. I should only be concerned in the spotting gets heavier or if I start to have cramps with it.

Thank you Jesus for protecting our little miracle baby. We were so scared. Thank you for taking care of our little family and keeping us all safe. Please continue to give us peace of mind that you will bring this little one safely home to us in 7 months.