My struggle right now

So I hate this diet. Now, this doesn't mean I'm not doing it...but I hate it. This is my first step really trying to get healthier...so I am new to all of this. These issues now that they have come about have been so eye-opening. They have answered so many questions. I am very pleased that I have an answer for all the problems I've been having...but it comes with so much more...

I have now been on Metformin for about 4 days. I have been on this South Beach diet since yesterday. It sucks. I honestly had no idea what I was getting myself into. EVERYTHING seems to have carbs in it. I can't have bread...and Ive come to realize that that is the ONE carb I will miss. I can do without potatoes, corn, pasta....but I miss bread already. In fact, I have decided I am not going to cut it out completely. I am eating wheat bread...it is impossible for me to do without it. I HATE salad...my first real whole day of the diet was today.

I ate 2 eggs and turkey bacon for breakfast. yum :) I attempted to eat a salad for lunch...gross! So I made a turkey bacon, deli turkey, tomato, and mayo sandwich on wheat bread. That was delicious. I also had grapes. Then for supper DH made some amazing tilapia with broccoli and cauliflower and mushrooms. That was also good....but I was still hungry. I ended up just now making some egg salad (with sweet relish, fat free butter substitute, and mayo). And I ate it on wheat bread. I'm obviously not doing so well on this diet...but it's a work in progress. I am really trying...and I have already made some big changes.

I am proud of myself...I had a good cry with DH in the kitchen tonight. I am a little scared about what's wrong with me. I am really making steps to change my lifestyle. It obviously cannot be changed in one day...or even a few months. I have to give myself time to get used to this. But I am determined to make myself healthier.

This is a long road.......but here I go...