First Ultrasound!

So today was our first appointment!!! Let me just say I am so happy that we are staying with the same ObGyn because she just about hit the floor when she saw us!!! She said "This is surely a miracle! I mean...especially with all the odds against you guys..." I couldn't agree more! So we went over paper work...I was given a cute little goody bag...haha. And we got an ultrasound!!!


I am just in such awe that I am really pregnant :)

I took SO many pictures! LOL I took one of us in the car before we went in, one of the room....one of DH and our nurse practitioner (who has been with us since a year TTC) and a picture of me with my goody bag. LOL I just took a bunch. But we only took one pic of the ultrasound with my camera. We will get a CD of future ultrasounds.

She said I was measuring 6 weeks 1 day. I was actually 6 weeks 6 days. But she is not concerned at all. She said my EDD is still Dec 4th. Which is our nephew's bday :) We got to hear the heartbeat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was the most precious moment! DH started to get a little teary eyed...so of course I did too! It's just been so long awaited...it was just such a special moment! The heartbeat was 115 bpm and she said that was healthy. They took a ton of blood and poked me a gazillion times! Ugh! But we just walked out of there beaming!!! :)

In some strange news...my foster mom is in the hospital with pneumonia. :( She was sick last night and my dad called to tell me he may need us to watch my brother and sister. But instead, he took off last night and tonite. She had an appointment today and they admitted her. She will be there at least until Saturday. But she was very happy to see the ultrasound pics! :)

And lastly, DH and I will be out of the state this weekend for his best friend's wedding in Kentucky. I hope everyone is doing as fabulous as I am!!! :)

Oh...and PS...here's the long awaited belly pic from today...

Week 6 of Pregnancy :)

Let me just start with...I LOVE BEING PREGNANT.

I seriously can't describe it in words. We had a family get together for Easter yesterday. I am already showing. It's totally bloat...but still. I look like I'm already 4 months or something. So anywho...my aunt is super excited. She wanted to do a bunch of old wives tales to see what I'm having. Apparently...I'm having a girl! LOL But we'll see about that.

Alright...moving on. So my step mom...who I was really surprised was so happy for us...didn't last long. She said something along the lines of "Well what made you guys think to get pregnant now? And aren't you worried about how to manage?" And I usually don't stand up to her and my dad....so I was proud of myself when I said "It may not be the most appropriate time with Joel not having a job now...but no amount of money would show how much I am going to love this baby. I don't regret a thing." Go me :)

So now I'll tell you about my belly. I wish I hadn't left my camera at my aunt's because now I can't post the belly pics. Oh my belly is so huge already. Some of my family thought it was funny...my dad, decided to use it as a jab against my weight. I am so so so used to my dad and his wife saying things about my weight. It's so annoying. So...as we're leaving I go to say goodbye to my little brother that my dad is holding. My dad says "She's gonna give you a little nephew!" And I said "Or a little niece!" And my dad said "Well I think you're having twins..." THANKS DAD.

And of course....NO ONE BELIEVES ME when I tell them I have NOT GAINED ANY WEIGHT! But I really haven't! It is all bloat (and gas! haha)! I weigh...hold your breath....272 and I'm 5'10". So far since I found out I was pregnant I have weighed between 268-274. So as far as symptoms...nothing too bad. I threw up last night which was just fantastic...lol. But besides that, just need to eat when I'm hungry...and I'm good. Right now I am battling with allergies really bad...and it sucks to not be able to take anything for them. I'm getting really bad headaches because of the drainage...and I don't sleep well at night because of it. Also, the coughing doesn't help because when I'm nauseous and I cough...I throw up. So that's not fun.

So our first appointment is Thursday! Can't wait!

Aversions, Cravings...FOOD!

I AM HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am hungry all the time 24/7. I practically stay hungry. I need to eat about every 3-4 hours so I don't get that extra bad tummy growl. But I'm still trying to figure out what I can carry with me, how I can eat while working (I'm a sign language interpreter-so my hands are pretty busy), and what I can eat.

Aversions: Just about everything cooked at home. Everything I make myself, by the time I've made it, I don't want it. In fact, I will not eat it. My DH has been cooking everything so that I will actually eat. I do not like anything ground turkey (which is what we use as a substitute for ground beef in every recipe), I HATE water, I don't really want a salad, I'm not too crazy about potatoes...and FRUIT. I really can't stand any kind of fruit. I ate some pineapple mixed into my ice cream last night so I could some kind of fruit serving. I think I'm going to have to go the juice route to get fruit. I can't eat any of it!

Cravings: TACO BELL. I am stinkin in love with those 89 cent cheesy double beef burritos!!! I can eat one or two at a time. I could eat this morning, noon, and night. And last night DH made me a bacon, tomato, and mayo sandwich and it was AMAZING! It was so good I asked him to make me another one...and one for lunch today :) I have noticed that I am not really hungry for anything during the day and just kind of have to force myself to eat a little something. But at night! Oh at night I want everything!!!

So tomorrow I go to try on my bridesmaids dress for DH's best friends wedding. I got fitted last week the day before I found out I was pregnant. And boy did she make that dress tight! So I am hoping and praying that it still fits (it's only a week later!) and their wedding is a week from Saturday...so I hope I can make it another week!

Sad news is I have gained back those 3 pounds I lost because instead of puking I have been eating :) haha. So I'm trying my best to be extra careful...at least until the wedding...to make sure I don't go crazy.

Our first appointment to see the baby bean is in a week! I'm so excited I can't stand it! Every night before I go to bed I still look at that positive test. And at least once a day I tell DH "Honey...I'm pregnant!" Because I'm still on cloud 9. Everyone from church is just so happy for us! We have been told by tons of people that we will be great parents. I still stand back and can't believe this is happening for us. I am so thankful everyday for this precious miracle. I can't even describe it!!!

Week 5 of Pregnancy!

I honestly cannot believe I am writing this blog. I have been so stuck on when to start a new post because I keep logging in and reading my "I'm Pregnant!" post and I just stared at it. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get pregnant like this. It is so surreal.

I feel quite odd now too. I'm kind of stuck in between being an IF survivor and a mommy. I have joined a new message board on babyzone called Pregnancy After Infertility. But I was asked to host the December Due Date Club. I accepted, but then I logged in and the first post a I read was from a girl that is 17 and just found out she was pregnant and her and her boyfriend are planning on getting married, but don't know when now that they're expecting. How am I supposed to have anything in common with her?! Oh yea...we're both pregnant. But I have a feeling this hosting thing will be a struggle...

I feel so lost without offering my support to the ladies on the TTC 9+months board. But I have made my promise to not post there often because I do not want to make anyone uncomfortable. I've been there, done that. And as excited as I am for myself, I have left some incredibly fantastic women back on that board that are still struggling. I will be praying for them everyday that God blesses them.

Now for the fun stuff....I am sick, sick, sick! And it is FABULOUS! I have morning/noon/night/all the time sickness! But I am honestly enjoying every minute of it! LOL I have actually lost 3 pounds because I have been puking my guts out and not eating. DH claims my boobs are getting bigger (well actually he said my 'areolas' but I figured that was too graphic!). I am not really craving any foods...I'm actually quite the opposite. I have food aversions to everything! I'm very very picky right now. On top of that I am hungry about every 3-4 hours, but I only eat a little bit. I threw up last night at church and DH rushed out to get me ginger snaps and ginger-ale. The cookies are incredibly helpful! The ginger-ale...well, I'm not a fan of soda...so I'm working on it. The hardest thing for me is to not have my sugar free crystal light tea! I'm dying of thirst and DH will only let me have water or milk right now til I can find a healthy alternative.

In other news...I have told just about every single person that I know!!! It has been so fantastic and I have just been on cloud 9! My sister was by far the most excited for us! The least excited was probably my dad...but he didn't say anything negative at all...so we're doing alright! My DH has been at my beck and call 24/7! He is so excited! I love him to death! He cooked supper tonite and did the dishes and everything! He is trying so hard to help me out! And I'm not gonna lie...I'm lovin it!

And the BIG news!!! I called my Ob/Gyn today and set up my first appointment! They told me I didn't need to come in for bloodwork?? But anyway...my first appointment is set for April 16th, 2009 at 10:30am. And here's the real kicker...this was the day for our FIRST RE appointment!!! OMG!!!!!!!! We are CANCELLING that! haha I will be about 6 weeks and 6 days for our first appointment which is kind of on the early side of things as far as seeing the heart beat...but the nurse said we would! So that appointment will give me my official due date and we will hopefully be able to see the heart beat!

In other momma news...our puppies are now 1 week old! I swear they have doubled in size! They are absolutely adorable! I need to get pics up!

IM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally broke down and took a HPT at 11pm Friday night :)

And I took it and then immediately left the bathroom. DH and I sat on the bed for exactly 3 minutes...and at 10:55pm he got up and saw it. He stared at it and rocked back and forth a bit. And I said "What does it say?!" And he looked at me and said "You're pregnant." And I was speechless!

We stared at each other and hugged and hugged and cried and cried. We called his Aunt Becky first. She is the BEST. Then I called my sister and said "Abby, guess what? You're going to be an aunt!" She was probably the most thrilled person! Then I called my mom and Joel called his best friend and fiancee. We tried and tried to get ahold of his mom, but it was late. His dad works nights at the Walmart down the street so we hopped in the car to see his dad. He about fell over. Then on the way home DH called his brother (yes, THAT BIL) and said "Hey, when's Korben's ( our nephew) birthday?" And Matthew answered "December 4th" And Joel said "Well about 2 days later we're having our own!" And Matthew said "Really? Reeaaallllyyy?!?!?"

And from then on it's been calling best friends and updating things online :) haha My mom asked me who we would tell or if we would wait. And I said "there is no way I'm waiting to tell anyone. It's been too long and I'm too excited!" So most likely Sunday at church I will be telling everyone! However, I am waiting until Easter to tell my dad and his side of the family.

SO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am due around December 6th, 2009! I can't believe it! But I feel so so so blessed! After all that we've been though...it took a break...and it worked! :)

I will forever remember this day :)

CD 36...Still NO AF!

So I guess I'm testing in the morning...

OMG if it's negative I will just die!!!

But I bought a 2 pack, so I guess if it's negative tomorrow I will try again a few days later.

And DH has offered to look at it for me so it doesn't make me quite as upset. It was a suggestion from one of the girls on my message board. She said when she takes tests she doesn't look at them and asks her DH to do it for her. She said it helps with emotions. So I'm gonna try that approach.

WISH ME LUCK! I will update tomorrow!

CD 35...

AND NO AF.


OMG.

My heart is racing. I'm now like...5 days late.

No symptoms. Except extreme nausea this morning, but I am NOT fooling myself.

There's no way I'm pregnant...there's no way I'm pregnant...

So DH has insisted that if AF does not start tomorrow...we're buying a test to take Saturday morning. OMG. I have not tested since Christmas, and we all know how that turned out.

I just keep telling myself...I'm not pregnant, I'm not pregnant...I'm NOT pregnant.